i can’t swim.
yet, my first activity after one whole month of teaching is swimming. i am often curious of how i would act in different situations, and now i see them as an opportunity to be courageous (or to prove what a coward i can be 😦 ), which is why i took the teaching job in the first place. i have too many unjustified fears; aquaphobia (fear of water), cynophobia (fear of dogs), chiraptophobia (fear of being touched).. the list goes on.
my fear of water started at eleven, when i almost drowned in a pool. so when i dipped into the pool at Eastwood, it took me forever before i edged away from the side. the swimming pool is in the shades, so even at noon, the water was chilly, the kind that sent immediate chill up to your bones and make you numb enough to not want to move an inch.
i think i was in that very position for maybe half an hour. or maybe time ticked by slowly when you are doing nothing.
there’s only one way to float : to relax. but tell me this, how am i supposed to relax in my biggest fear? you have to take a deep breath, put your whole head beneath water and let your body float. according to ezra (lee, btw), if there is air in your lungs, you float; if there is none, you sink. for the first hundred times, i had an immediate reflex of needing to be above water. i manage to float after 2 hours of wadding in the pool of just 1.5m tall.
siaw tien tried to teach me how to swim first, and here comes my reflex out of my fear of being touched. she wanted to grab my legs to demonstrate how to kick the water to float and i, she supposedly claimed, kicked her in the nose (sorry!). for the rest of the day, i would just float using salome’s yellow float, or wade in the pool, or simply just stay at the edge of the pool.
while i was struggling to float, the boys were daring enough to sink. why would someone choose to sink? i was screaming inside! but then it seemed like fun. look at those smiling faces.
salome brought a boat called the ‘Ocean Scooter’ (the irony of riding it in a pool) which we all had fun riding on it, but falling part is the worst. thankfully, i was the only one that day who wasn’t toppled over on purpose. maybe my body language spoke “HELP!” or maybe they aren’t that comfortable around me just yet.
Look at the pictures:
yes this picture is hilarious. notice the third girl who was looking in the boat? didn’t she look like she expect some goodies in it? she was, in fact, just curious of the hole on the boat. do you spot me at the end?
don’t you love this picture? the way they both try to balance each other. the girl in front (jia jing) was falling because david (half a face shown) tilted the boat, while the girl at the back (siaw tien) tried to balance it by going the other way. but like always, gravity always wins. *splash*
i finally got on the boat, after everyone had their chance. and when the boat tilt slightly, my mouth looped into an ‘O’ shape. i think i screamed too. pathetic? the fear of falling.. into water. i didn’t fall, thanks to siew hui (the happy-looking girl beside me)
oh i forgot to mention who went that day: t siew hui, salome, siaw tien, jia jing, steve, voon fung, ezra l, ezra s, gan, david and i.
those happened two days ago. today we went for swimming (again). i was determined to learn how to swim, and not just float. and i actually managed to swim across half the swimming pool, probably 20 feet. i have no idea what style i was attempting, but i did. of course, i need to learn to take a breath in between – still trying.
those who went today were salome, siaw tien, voon fung, ezra l, ezra s, sze yee, gan, david, jun, yee fan, ming jin, lokek… did i miss out anyone? there were quite a lot today. i had no idea how many gallons of water (yes, i’m exaggerating) by learning how to swim and playing around. we seemed to have the habit of splashing water to people’s faces. yee fan or ming jin (actually i’m always confused with these two) is an expert in slapping water to another target. i tried, but the water seemed to lose its momentum more easily than they do.
random talk. lol.
here are some pictures to enjoy:
sze yee (girl on the boat) has the exact same swimming suit as i do. maybe this should be the Cute Sport Club (CSC) girls’ swimming suit.
us having fun. that’s chee wai on the boat laughing at .. well, one of us.
the six rule-breakers. they dived.. the rules state “no diving, no jumping”
but that’s counted as falling, isn’t it?
i laugh more easily today. something about this group of friends, just like most others, that makes me comfortable enough to be the better side of me, simple and carefree. i talked more, but not as much. i still loved looking at happenings unfolding from a distance and be mesmerised at even the most common things…
PEACE OUT! (failed peace sign)