I decided to try the PostAWeek2011 challenge from The Daily Post, which i abandoned after shortly after starting it (because of the sem1 exams). Hopefully this second trial will last longer. Here’s my first topic from the Daily Post that I am going to write about : What’s something you never believed until you experienced it?
I blanked out in front of the screen for a couple of minutes, not knowing exactly what to write. It is not because I believe everything – being skeptical as I am, there are a lot of things I doubt, the most recent: if reboiling water would cause cancer. Can it? LOL.
But then I thought of the one thing I never believed in.
Not love in general, of course. that would be plain sad. On the positive note, I do believe in certain type of love, love of a parent to a child, of siblings, of two best friends… those kind of love i do believe in.
But, the boyfriend-girlfriend kind of love, i don’t completely believe in it.
This is sad but true.
I’ve seen too many hearts break around me long before I know what it feels like to fall for someone. I’ve watched as relationships fall apart, two lovebirds drift apart, friendship strained all because of a misunderstanding, or worse, when one has a change of heart.
I listened as friends shared their sad stories of being left behind. Now that I think about it, my friends hardly share the stories of their happy moments with their bf/gf. Not multiplying the happiness, but just dividing the sorrow eh?
You probably wonder if I have a boyfriend. Well, I’m single.
I wonder almost always, what does it feel like to be in love. Do you feel all bubbly and excited when you are with him? Do you feel butterflies in your stomach with each touch? Or do you feel so comfortable you could tell anything to him? All of the above? None ?
I wouldn’t know. yet.
Friendship and love are so closely linked it’s sometimes hard to tell them apart. But friends wouldn’t break your heart, and well – love does. At least that’s what I hear.
Boyfriends are probably overrated anyway…
I wonder: do i not believe in love because i don’t have a boyfriend, or do i not have a boyfriend because i don’t believe in love ..but someday I’ll believe in it.
And when I do, I’ll look back at this post and be able to answer all the questions I have.